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Since today starts a new year I guess it’s the right time to peek back at all that happened last year and to hope for better things from the year ahead.
Last year started with me being ill, I didn’t realise just how ill I was though and things grew worse and worse to the point I was very seriously ill and could have died without the treatment I received. Luckily all that is behind me now and it’s impossible for it to happen again …. you really can’t grow a gall bladder back right?lol After that we hit a period of exciting moments as we finally decided we had enough of a deposit saved to find a home that would truly be our own and we did find it but delays hit and we ended up in limbo for most of the last half of the year. Fortunately things have started moving again now we have a completed chain and hopefully we’ll be exchanging and completing over the next few weeks.
So in brief, last year started bad and got worse, then it got very exciting followed by limbo but ended on a high!
I guess the main thing from this year is all that’s going to be involved in our house purchase and move but other than that I have a lot of other things to look forward to and plans made for this year. The things to look forward to are a lot of big family birthdays this year so many excuses to get together and catch up with everyone and I think I’m going to be doing Christmas this year as well, I know it’s a huge task but I love cooking for people and in our new house, that kitchen/dining room just cries out to entertain so I’m really looking forward to that! One of the big birthdays is my own, I’m going to be 40 in a couple of months, I don’t feel old and can’t see that changing but it is a great excuse to meet up with friends and have a good giggle, especially as it’s a friend 40th a few weeks later too!
I’ve also been preparing myself for beating my agoraphobia, when we move it’s to a much nicer, quieter area and I believe I can beat this and start going out on my own, I’m sure this can work for me as I did something similar when I moved in with Dave 7 years ago and quit smoking, it was much easier for me that for others I know who have gone through it. I’ve already seen a change in me since I’ve started preparing for it, I feel much more confident and am not so quick to agree with a crowd, instead I found myself speaking my opinions more and more this year even when I knew they would not be popular. Part of me getting better is going to involve me being true to myself and not giving in to the crowd even if that means I might lose friends, I guess if I do, they really were not friends to start with if I’m not allowed to have my own opinion?
The last decision I have made is to do with my comping. For a long while now it’s been quite high up on my list of priorities (needing to get the dailies done EVERYDAY and being up to date with MSE are things I’m sure some/most of you have experienced/can understand) but I’m going to change that. I want to enjoy life more and not have most of my time when Dave’s at work taken up by just one of my hobbies as I’m missing out on time with the others. As I’ve said, after the move I’m determined that I’m going to be going out more and I also want to attack the huge pile of books that are on my ‘to-read’ shelves (far too many for a stack these days). I also want to spend time with the games I have and my crafting, in the new house we’ll have a garden that I can tinker with and I really don’t want to lose any of the friends I have made so I’ll need some time to have a chat with them as often as possible. I figure that unless I give up on sleep, which I’d really rather not do again, I need to make a choice over what I’m prepared to give up and that is the comps. I’m not totally finishing with them, I don’t think I could do that but they’re not going to rule my days like that have done. If I don’t get the dailies done, so what! If I’m pages and pages behind (I am right now as I haven’t done any on mse since the 10th of December) it really doesn’t matter. As long as Dave and I are happy and we have a good life, none of the rest really matters and doing something which causes stress isn’t a good thing and it did stress me towards the end of last year in trying to keep up with everything and realising what I was missing out on.
So that’s my thinking about this year, hopefully it’ll all come together and will make for a fantastic year for us and I wish all my readers an amazing year as well!