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First Steps

I don’t know if many of you have spotted that my challenge to myself this year isn’t competition related, instead I set myself up to at least start to beat my agoraphobia and finally last week I have started to do something about it instead of just thinking about doing something about it. I’ve also decided to share my journey on here, recent events have shown that mental health problems really shouldn’t be hidden away, help is out there if you need it, even if it’s just reading how others cope and learning to cope yourself. The main thing I’m learning on my journey back to living again is that life is worth living, yes, horrible things can and do happen but to let them rule the rest of my life would be giving in and letting those who hurt me win. They’re out of my life now, I’m not going to let them rule it still, I AM going to get better, have a fantastic life and enjoy every moment of it 😀

So, to start, here’s a very brief history: for the last 5/6 years the only time I have left the house has been with Dave, he makes me feel safe and secure and I know I can trust him. If anyone is wondering why this might be a problem, before I met Dave, I was in a string of bad relationships, the last one nearly killing me on a couple of occasions but now I’m free of all that and Dave has given me time and helped me to heal and now he’s helping and encouraging me into living again, showing me how life should be and it is pretty wonderful!

Anyway, last week I had a problem, I needed to make an appointment to have my Nexplanon implant changed but I wasn’t sure where to go for it over here. I struggle with making telephone calls as I have to plan in advance what to say and I couldn’t figure out the right string of words to ask if I telephoned my new GP which was making me feel very frustrated. It eventually boiled over and without thinking I put my shoes on, grabbed my coat and walked down there. It was only once I was half way there (it’s about 800m away) when I realised what I was doing, I felt so surprised but really happy that finally I believed myself that it would be OK to go out and it was.

I got to the doctors, spoke to the receptionist, made and appointment and have been back twice more since then, all on my own (OK, Dave gave me a lift half way for one appointment as we have a busy road between us and them and it was rush hour!lol) and I know I will be fine to go back again when I need to. I guess the next thing to work on now is going out on my own for pleasure not just because I need to be somewhere or do something. I know it will come in time, I’ll convince myself that it’s OK and that I can do it and I will 😀

I’ve also finally started back on my weight loss mission too, I’m not doing any fancy diet, just eating healthily (mostly) and keeping the calories under 1600/1700 each day with doing some exercise. I finally found something I really enjoy doing and it’s the most simple of exercises but it really gets a sweat going. I use a step and just go up and down on it while I watch something on TV or a movie. It’s amazing how much time goes past without you noticing if you distract yourself and keep exercising, hopefully I’ll keep going this time and this time next year, I’ll be on the way to being half the woman I am today 😀

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Deliveries 17th June 2014

17-07-2014First off, this is not something I have won from a competition, I have purchased these but I still view them as a win because I have been looking for them for so long.

Many years ago (well before I left school so over 25 years now) my Brother and I purchased our Mother a pair of these slippers. She loved them so much that they were never off of her feet, it was really nice to have given a gift that someone loved so much and I keep trying to do the same in each gift I give now. The problem came a year or so later, there were holes in the soles, the fur was all matted and ragged but she still wore them (have you ever had a pair of slippers like that? I know I have now so I understand her) but they were truly awful and so I’m sad to say my brother and I cut them up to make sure she could not wear them any more. We tried to find her a new pair but even then it was impossible and since I’ve started using eBay I’ve kept an eye out each Birthday and Christmas in the hope of finding another pair.

Thanks so much to 20orchid11 on there, I have finally managed it (I’ve linked to her profile there as she has some lovely other things for sale, just go have a peek when you have time) and she has been fantastic with chatting to me about them and sending them on to me. It’s really great timing for me too as this year my Mother will be 65 so this is going to be part of her birthday gifts, I just wish I could be there with her to see her face when she opens these and remembers the pair she used to have 😀

Deliveries 11th June 2014

11-06-2014I won this lovely set from Phone Free Friday on Twitter 🙂

 

Those of you that know me know I’m not one of those people who are attached to my phone, most of the time friends have to check with me if it’s charged before they call or text me I’m that bad!lol But there are a lot of you who are very attached to your phone so this charity day might be a struggle for you but, I bet if you tried you could do it and enjoy it too! The details are all on the Phone free Friday website here so please pop over and have a look and if you can, please donate to this very worthwhile cause while you’re there 😀

Deliveries 27th March 2014

27-03-2014I received this lovely goodybag from CraftSellerMag over on twitter 🙂

I also received some lovely gifts and cards, thank you to everyone who has wished me a happy 40th, it really has been a good start to being a 40-something 😀

Diary of a First Time Buyer – Exchange, completion and after that!

Well hasn’t that been an exciting 2 months! I totally forgot to update here with everything that was happening and my brain has been almost totally mushed with all the things I needed to remember and decide about. For anyone who doesn’t follow me on Twitter (or who missed all the excitement!lol) we finally exchanged on our house on the 15th and completed on the 23rd of January.

It all came as a bit of a surprise and a mad rush. We knew almost everything was in place before Christmas, we were just waiting for 1 search to be returned and with how slowly the rest of our purchase had gone (check the dates on my other FTB posts!) we thought it still would take time this year when everything was finally in place and that’s why the surprise! We heard from our solicitors on the 13th suggesting an almost immediate exchange with completion on the 23rd and we jumped at the chance and other than the solicitor phoning to tell us to collect our keys before they were ready, it all went really smoothly for us.

So now we’re doing a long move in, we decided a while ago that we would not give notice on the house we currently live in until we actually had the keys to the new house in our hands. Even with all the penalties you can incur, some things can still go wrong after exchange and we really didn’t want to end up homeless!lol So, after giving notice we ended up with 5/6 weeks where we would have both houses, we decided that some of the older bits of furniture would need replacing and that we’d try to get them delivered before we moved in. This week we got the final delivery dates confirmed (please don’t let them change now!lol) and so have arranged the removals and clearance of this house so in about 2 weeks we will be moving properly in.

It’s been a very long journey for us, mostly because we were very picky over what we wanted and stuck it out when things slowed right down but looking at the parts we have completed so far over there, we both know it’s really been worth it, here, see for yourself, this is most of our dining room and the back of the kitchen

Dining RoomThere is also another bit of news, I’ve been spending a day or two each week over at the house unpacking boxes and generally sorting out the bits that we’ve moved across ourselves already. Well, last week when I was over there, I actually went out, on my own! That’s the first time in about 5 years. I didn’t go far, just to the end of the road and back but it’s a start and shows I can do it, I just need to keep reminding myself of that if (when) things get tough again in the future 😀

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